i'm on my way on.........

hello! good afternoon! it's 3 PM here, in Indonesia. Right now I'm working so hard on my udergraduate thesis.  Yeah, my head is on chaos now, that's why I finally redirected here hahaa~ there's a difference on writing a thesis and spilling story on this holy blog. of course!

I've been working on my thesis months by months, 'till I noticed that a year passed by. what took it so long? what have I done? where did the time flies? To be really honest, I don't even know the exact answer. Did I waste too much time on this? yes..


you know, the old me will be on rage, regretting the time that carelessly wasted. But now, I feel like I'm tired on blaming myself. There's no use on it. I've tried so many things and learn from scratch, although it's not even enough. I have so many people that keep cheer me up and show me their respect. Family, with their endless pray, supports, and love *cheesy! XD*. Friends, who share the same struggle. We're fighting together, yeah?! We've come this far, we've been through so many obstacles, there's no way to run or even giving up. Then, friends who already accomplished their mission and begin to reach a new level of future *sip banget ini*. I mean, friends of mine who already graduated and start stepping on their new challenging journey. That touching moment, when one of my friend, Yuni, who had already graduated attacked me with her 'absurd' support, said 'ayo kamu buruan wisuda, sebenernya aku paling nungguin liat kamu dandan dan pake kebaya. aku sempetin dateng!' yeah, I'll take it as a support XD.
thank you for everything. I promise that I won't disappoint anyone. I'm on my way!

I have no reason on being lazy. I have no intense to delay my graduation over again. I will finish this as quick as I could. I'll keep praying to Allah.

Talking about praying, I never refuse the miracle of pray. But these days I feel that Allah never leave us, the confused sinner, alone. He shows His grace in the best way, and it make me almost cry. Even the worst attempts and problems are precious, because it allows me to learn soooo many new things. I even enjoy programming, code, and game developing, after the 4,5 years of struggling on uni.

So now, I'll wipe my sweat. Re-built my energy. Start running in a random pace. Yeah, I love running so much. Running into my goal and being happy imagining everything that will wait us ahead :)

" 'kono saki ga mienai' nante, fuan garu yori mo~ nani ga matterundarou tte, ore to waku waku shiyou yo~ fuan and kitai de, oh try yourself"  
(Beautiful Days - SPYAIR)

this song really describes my current situation and all of my anxiety about my thesis. feels like I'm getting hooked lol!

bu-byeee! :)